I wish...I could!

11th December, 1st January, 10th January, 20th January and now 14th February, are among the few dates which I would like to remember forever for their special significance in my otherwise so good for nothing life. The thought of yet another auspicious date made me took through the less traveled path in my life over the last five years.

It seems a long time though the sweet fragrance is still as fresh as it could be. Those charming days when I had nothing else to do except feeling the emotions of much talked about word in the world. It was my first saint named day with someone, I feel special to me. I was distant apart from her yet felt so close to each other like she used to feel. We both were excited and happy with mixed emotions. We did chat all day along before the day and waited for the next day like anything. At the time, when the day was on its transition and as soon as the clock struck mid-night, I made a call to her. But how could I forget that my bad luck is always there with me. There were some network problem and I was bugging my head all around to kill the time unless the things were fine at my end. I don't remember how but around 1 o'clock, my angel smiled on me and we got to share couple of words with each other. What a wonderful moment for us like never before. We laughed, we cried, we talked and we did many more things some knowingly some unknowingly. We talked all together whole night with a hide and seek game with mobile network. I was roaming around in my room, in my hostel corridor or outside under a violet moon likewise she was there on the terrace of her room, sitting with a small self made garden with full of flowers. And lastly but not the least, we ended our day with a promise to be with each other from our next valentine day...where would be able to look into each other's eyes and feel the eternal touch...

Since then, it's has been our fifth valentine day and to our share of bad luck...we are yet to meet each other on this so called day of love. Every next year we had our own limitations at both the ends. How hard we could tried, the fate was same. This time as well, we thought, we felt and we talked much about but again our destiny would have decided something else for us.

I always believed in, "so close no matter how far, couldn't be much more from the heart, forever trusting who we are and nothing else matters", but now I feel that it matters. It matters when you are present in every dimension of this imperfect world.

Ahh!...I am not feeling like writing anything more out from me. Let it be with me for a time being. I don't know whether there would be a next time like before...However I would like to feel the things once which I used to miss for a long...I wish my Master would shower His blessing on me once more...

A brief flashback...

It's been a long time since I have poured my thoughts in plain words. I don't know what inspired me to come back here and giving words to the flow which was going through my mind by today evening. To start with, it was yet another day for me when two exams were waiting for me. I prepared well for the big monster (read as 'Investvents' - for those who are curious to know) and was completely fresh after the night out, but as usual the monster made me on my toes and raped me thoroughly. I was completely upset with this inhuman act.

The next exam was scheduled after 2 hours so I decided to take a power nap but again that 'investments' monster followed me on my bed and I got up at once. I had nothing left to make my day worse so I started flipping up couple of pages of some articles related to the another giant known as 'strategy' (ohh no! it's not another monster rather it's a friendly fellow).

As soon as the clock struck 2:30 PM, the exam got started. A full fledged case of 30 pages were given to us followed by some familiar questions. Though it was quite easy, yet it was tiring as we only get an opportunity to improve our handwriting in these types of  'Globe' exams.

After getting exhausted from two exams, I came back to my room and sat down on the revolving chair lying in the corner. Suddenly, I was thinking that what is this. Yet another exam...the sequence is endless...sometimes I find hard to breathe among the assignments/projects/quizzes/exams. Again no learning....

And by then, I started to remember the days of my previous institute. Though both the institutes have so many difference, yet there is one thing shared by them...No Learning

At former, there is no means to enforce the learning process while at latter, there are means to enforce the process without learning.

After some time, my focus got shifted on the good old days spent at the luxury hotel (err...read as hostel) of the former. In another view, those 5 years were complete holiday package with more than desired freedom and off course good friends. 

The leisure on everyday to get involved in endless talks (read as...bakar), to sleep whole day & night, to complete trilogy of movies in one go, to make someone else listening the same tracks of music, to play badminton for hours on everyday evening (read as...'Rozgaar') and many more things to do.

Sometimes I used to think what I have got from my previous institute and the after thought is: I have been given good memories & fun time which I'll never be able to replicate, and above all some real gems as my friends.

Then started the flashback, the things shared with each of them...(though I would like to capture those thoughts in the words but for time being...let it be as it'll be a different post all together).

But again, my former institute has given me the friends I could back on...any time, any where...

I don't know what's in store for me here...I am happy with whatever I have got so far...